Open Letter to Inner Knowing From the Negative Ego Self (on her death bed)
Dear Inner Knowing,
I am sorry. I didn’t always listen to you. I tried to convince myself that I knew better.
My intention was good. It was to make sure we had enough.
I wanted to know that you were taken care of.
Survival mind is my mind.
As I sit here at the end of my existence. I can reflect on our lives together and honestly admit that you were right.
Every single time, you were there.
And you knew.
You always knew everything that felt right.
I tried to convince you differently. Because I was afraid.
Because I am afraid. Because, well, fear is what fuels me.
Right now, I know because the pain can no longer be carried and truth can no longer be hidden.
Inner peace, you have always been the thing that mattered the most.
I surrender to you. Thank you for your undying patience with me all of this time.
Love, Your Negative Ego Self